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19 November 2010 @ 02:31 am
Heeeeey Live journal, long time no see. Twitter has swept me away, what with it not requiring me to formulate thoughts into coherent paragraphs and all. Ah, the wonders of micro-blogging.

Anyway, posting because I realized something tonight. I am frantically, randomly chasing something extraordinary. I say that because my cousin and I have been dabbling in Wicca, something I don't believe in in the least, but am compelled to plow forward with because it's the closest thing to "magic" I can find. I'm willing to run headlong into anything that offers the possibility of the supernatural - urban exploration, ghost walks, Ouija boards, seances, Wicca - even though I'm completely skeptical about all of it. I don't believe in magic, in ghosts, in God, in a universal truth or order or power. But the thought that there isn't something more - that I'll never catch a glimpse of something odd, let alone find that great mysterious adventure I've read about my whole life - is really...disheartening.

Anyway, I feel bad. My cousin is into the Wicca, and our third - a step-cousin - is also into it, and I'm the one sitting there trying not to laugh, because I'm getting nothing from this, don't believe in this, but can't bow out, because what if?

It's not like this keeps me up at night. I'm not tearing at my hair over it, but sometimes it's hard to ignore...like when your circle-mates are content interpreting the rustling of leaves as the presence of a ghost, or the tingling of cold fingers and toes as the signs of a universal power being channeled through them, and are really...getting something extraordinary, something more, out of this. ...Aaaand you're sitting there with a numb butt trying not to ruin it for them, waiting for a ghost to pull on your hair, or rain to fall from the sky, or some kind of quantifiable proof of something that isn't there.

Anyway, anyone else ever get that feeling? Utter frustration at the complete and total lack of, I dunno, magic or shinigami or shape-shifters or talking spider-tanks or giant robots out there?

Or more likely I need to stop reading so many goddamn paranormal books and manga.
09 September 2010 @ 06:59 am
Ugh, FU Adobe. How am I supposed to review your stupid ebooks if I can't even be comfortable reading them? RUGHAKND.

Does anyone know how to get around Adobe Digital Edition's DRM? I had limited success with the inept Python script, but apparently the other ebooks I have use a different type of DRM. I know you can do the screencapping bullshit but ugghhhh no thanks.

Any other suggestions?
30 August 2010 @ 03:38 am



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29 August 2010 @ 03:24 am
Yeah, this is one of those quarter-life crisis posts that consist of me flailing and screaming WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE, I'M A TERRIBLE WASTE OF SPACE, but I need to get it out and irl people are too busy to talk. It must come out, or I will die of massive ulcer failure. That's a real condition, btw.

Okay. Three things:

1) I am still sitting around in Craphole, Arizona, doing the same job AT WALMART that I was doing two years ago (I recently got passed over for a promotion they ASKED ME TO APPLY FOR LOL WHY?)

2) I still have no idea what I want to do with my life. No really.

3) Guilt for having such a useless, expensive life/education is EATING UP MY STOMACH and I think making me way too co-dependent on my boyfriend. Either that or I'm a stupid clueless doormat for him, I have yet to figure out which and I'm trying not to think about it because I will talk myself out of any conclusion I may come to and it only inspires more anxiety.

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29 August 2010 @ 02:33 am
If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own LJ and replace any question that you dislike with a new question.

Tag eleven people. Don’t refuse to do that. Don’t tag who tagged you.

lol do I even have 11 friends? D: Short flist is short T_T

fastforwardlife ladyshalott lightningslover luinthoron mitzrael proglution robinconnelly xemaya lingers sellotape zeldazutto

What song are you currently addicted to?
Skullcrusher Mountain by Jonathan Coulton Seriously. It's on brain-repeat.

What's your favourite season?
Fall and winter :3 they're beautiful in Arizona, DON'T MAKE ME CHOOSE

What’s the latest movie you watched?
Scott Pilgrim vs the World

What is the one skill you wish you had?
Hm. I'd love to be able play an instrument. Any instrument besides a fake guitar. Although yes, I do rock hard on the fake guitar.

What’s your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
My book review blog is my current obsession. We'll see how long this one lasts.

Also, I like True Blood.

What's your favourite musical instrument?
Idk, it's a close tie between the piano and acoustic guitar. Probably the piano, though, for the haunting factor.

What web sites do you always visit when you go online?
Twitter, That Guy With the Glasses, Yahoo!Mail, Dominic Deegan, Mark Reads Harry Potter, and The Spoony Experiment.

What was the last thing you bought?
Uhh...a Lego Star Wars game for my brother, and tampons. lol tmi

If you won 10,000 bucks today, what would you do with it?
Oh god, MOVE SOMEWHERE ELSE. And pay a bit on my student loans and bills. But mostly MOVE SOMEWHERE ELSE.

Favourite time of day?
The times in which I am not working. That's my favorite time of day ever.

What's the last thing that made you happy?
Watching the latest episodes of Red vs Blue. I love those morons.

Do you want to learn another language?
Japanese. Yeah, still. And only PARTLY for the weeaboo factor. Mostly because people would be like, 'Wow, you speak Japanese? That's cool, but utterly useless in this part of the country, why didn't you learn Spanish, you terrible Mexican?' And I'd be like 'Yeahhhhh *thumbs up*'

Five things you can’t live without.
Books, an AIR CONDITIONER OH GOD, my cell, my computer/internet, and my friends and boyfriend.
25 August 2010 @ 02:50 am
So I finally got around to watching Kick-Ass last week, and went tonight on a girl's night out for my b-day to see Scott Pilgrim. After hearing so many great things about both, I wonder if I'm just way too hard to please in the movie department?

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Anyway, I guess it was all right as a whole, and the ending was decent. But wow I guess I'm more of a violence prude than I thought xD

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Anyway, it did a good job of making me want to know more, and possibly read the comics, so yay to that.
31 July 2010 @ 03:47 pm
Hey guys. lol It's been forever. Twitter and my book blog have apparently been keeping me occupied, plus I just got finished with a ten day-long visit with my boyfriend. Trying not to think about that, cause I'm still sore about his leaving, so instead I'm gonna bitch about the movie we saw together, Inception. YAY MOVIE BITCHING!

Yeah so...I'm a fan of Nolan's, I really am, but I'm not really sure why anymore. I haven't really liked any of his non-Batman movies, aside from Memento, and his films are just continually OVERRATED. They are nowhere near as smart as everyone seems to think they are, and while I can respect him for trying something unconventional with every movie (as far as concepts go), with Inception...could he have found ANY way to make a cool concept more boring?

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All in all, it was a huge disappointment for me. I was filled with hope that it was going to be something cool and new and it was fucking Ocean's Eleven in The Matrix. Way to ruin your own movie, Nolan.

I honestly don't see what everyone sees in it, especially people who are supposed to be 'critics' and able to see through this pretentious bullshit. DAMN YOU OVERRATED MOVIES THAT AREN'T AS GOOD AS EVERYONE APPARENTLY THINKS. /dies

I appreciated the ambiguous ending though. I am all about ambiguity in an ending.
28 May 2010 @ 02:13 am
Saw Iron Man 2 today. Wasn't overly impressed. It felt...messy. Overcrowded. Too much going on, too many new characters, too much sloppy writing. Love RDJ as usual, but even he seemed off in this one; probably the writing. All his good, charming scenes were in the trailer, though. And I'm mad as hell they cut the scene out with Pepper kissing his mask. That was like a selling point for me; cute and clever.

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It wasn't a terrible movie, but it was sloppy, sloppy, sloppy, and very diappointing, not to mention a waste of talent and a good lead-in movie. Here's hoping the next one's better.
21 April 2010 @ 02:38 am
A few random things from the past few days:

  • The answer to the meme from a few days ago CAUSE I KNOW YOU WERE ALL WONDERING LOL

    1. He loved her enough to reunite her with the man she loved (his best friend). Yasu/Nana (NANA)
    2. He made 2005 a great year for her.Doctor/Rose (Doctor Who)
    3. Childhood friends, she abandoned everything to help him escape. YoruHara (Bleach)
    4. He fell in love with her against his will, reason, and even against his character. Darcy/Elizabeth (Pride and Prejudice)
    5. The alien warrior woman and the marine-turned-intergalactic peacekeeper. Green Lantern/Hawkgirl (Justice League/Unlimited)
    6. He follows her lead. Batou/Motoko (GitS:SAC)
    7. The barmaid and her knight vampire in shining armor pink lycra. Eric/Sookie (True Blood)
    8. He does all the things that she likes! Asou/Hina (Suki.Dakara Suki)
    9. A lively "father" and a harried "daughter". Tamaki/Haruhi (Ouran)
    10. Their love transcended brattiness, several curses, pink hair, and slime. Howl/Sophie (Howl's Moving Castle THE BOOK)

  • Today was actually kinda fun. My cousin, roommate and I all hopped in my car and went to the library (sans kids because cousin's husband was home), then drove across town with the windows down and the radio up and fountain soft drinks in our hands to the used book store, just to stay out and about because we never get to do that without kids. It was nice to feel and act like a twenty-one-year-old with a car and friends. Woulda been nicer if we'd had more interesting places to go, but lol small town. Would be nice to do this more often.

  • Picked up lotsa new books - Vampire Academy, Bone Crossed (lol glutton for punishment, right?), and Blue Moon, which I've now learned is the second in a series. Dammit. I dunno why I keep bashing my head into these almost unfailingly shitty teenage vampire series. Oh, wait, yes I do. It's fun ripping them to shreds~

And that is all~
16 April 2010 @ 03:26 am
Strange, this blogging about books thing is becoming somewhat regular. I blame the shitful excuses for fiction I've been reading lately. Most books of late tend to be just kinda 'meh', so there's not as much need to rant or rave, but this last trip to the library just whacked me over the head with crappy, it seems. First the Mercy series, now Blue Bloods.

For reasons I can only guess at, Blue Bloods seems to be a fairly popular vampire series. I say this because it's one we actually sell at Wal-Mart, and LORD KNOWS how picky they are about their books, right? Anyway, it's odd, because it is, without a doubt, probably the shittiest of the teenage vampire series out there (excluding the reigning queen of shitty teen vampire books, Twilight). And that's saying A LOT considering the competition, but really, it's crap. Shallow, juvenile, superficial, boring, intelligence-reducing crap.

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It's a concept that could have...maybe...been done better in better hands. In stead, it ended up in those of an E! Network Correspondant. Really, that tells you all you need to know about this book, because it is exactly what it sounds like - stupid, disposable, and a cheap attempt to capitalize on the vampire craze, aimed at the E! Network-watching crowd. These are impossibly beautiful cardboard characters doing alternately stupid and boring things in their boring little superficial world, wearing stylish clothes and being completely unrelatable in any way. Is it as bad as Twilight? Maybe. In a different way. It is the vapid trendwhore cheerleader to Twilight's pretentious emo kid. It doesn't aspire to be any more than it is, but unfortunately, what it is is CRAP.

Blah, glad that's out of my system. This is definitely a series I'm not continuing. At all.